Self-Doubt to Self Published- How I Found Success after releasing My first Book

I grew up dropping most of my allowance at the scholastic book fairs and writing. Looking back, writing stories to distribute to my classmates, I was destined to be a self-published author.

After elementary though, I focused most of my writing energy on writing songs. I wouldn’t attempt to write my first novel until I was 23. I wrote a 15,000-word first draft to a fiction story and till this day still, have not touched it. My second attempt would later become my first completed book, a psychological thriller called, Ideas of Illusion. The first draft was written in a few months. Writing between calls at work and at home. After three years of revising and editing, I released it March 4th, 2017. At the end of March, I would quit my Job and become a full-time self-published author, Musician, and Content Creator. As we are nearing a full year since leaving my job, I still work for myself, over 300 physical books, and a few digital copies are read around the world, and this is just the beginning.

So how did I find success as a self-published author on my first bat in the literary world?

Well, after reviewing all my available data from my website and social media analytics, sales, and experience, it comes down to four columns that are the foundation to my personal success as a self-published author. The four columns are Goals, Edit, Research, Break.


Set goals for your book. Even before you write it. Do you just want to complete a book? How much can you dedicate to writing the book a day? Do you want to sell it? How much do you want to sell it for? How many copies do you want to sell the first week? Month? Year? Who do you want it to reach? Will it just be in one format? Just to name a few.

Setting goals gives you not just something to work towards, but it gives you a direction to go.


This is not common knowledge, and that is okay. If you want people to read your book, let others edit your book.

You could learn how to self-edit your own book, and maybe you can self-edit with your first book. I personally would not advise it. I would get edits back and be in complete shock with how many little things I missed. Personally, I had a few eyes on my book for editing, and I used tools online such as GrammerCheck and ProWritingAid to name a few. People on Amazon and other places will rip your books to shreds for not having it edited. Invest if you can for an editor, but also look around and reach out. Get creative. Reach out to an English teacher that supported you, a local newspaper writer, even someone who despises you. There are so many options, which brings me to the third column.


Are you unsure how to self-publish a book? How to format an Ebook? Marketing ideas? How to get reviews? Research. Research before you write the book, during the writing process, during the editing, when it is completed, after the release. Every step of the way for your journey as a self-published author should include research. The reason why I felt confident enough to release my book was mostly due to all of the research I did prior. It is easy to get lost if you don’t know the area. It will save you a lifetime of stress.


Creating is work and work is just the use of directed energy. After you have completed your book, take a break. Rest. Schedule a time of recovery before releasing the book so you can have the energy to market it. Even if you wrote the book just to have for yourself, take a break. Soak in the victory of completing your novel.


Want to self-publish your first book? Take a look at this article from Self- Publishing School.

Also, check out the recent episode of my podcast Thoughts & Chill, “You don’t have to be Famous, You just have to be Creative.”  I speak with the author of, “The Honest Toddler: A Child’s Guide to Parenting”, Bunmi Laditan about her start in writing, tips for writers, and debunking a big myth about self-publishing.


My Vlog, From Self-Doubt to Self-Published is available on youtube.


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(Currently, I’m working on a non-fiction book, From Self-Doubt to Self-Published, as well as fiction novella, Shadow in the Dark, and novel, Pin The Face on The Beast. Musically I am working on releasing two albums this year. Digging in the Midnight Garden and Nightmare before Sunrise.)



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THOUGHTS & CHILL PODCAST – EPS 2 – You don’t have to be Famous, You just have to be Creative. Self-Publishing Tips with Bunmi Laditan

In today’s creative climate, writers are able to release their works on their own through Self-Publishing. Even with many success (and failure) stories, there are still misconceptions that cripple authors and poets who want to go the self-publishing route.

Episode 2 of my Podcast, Thoughts & Chill, I am joined by Author, Bunmi Laditan, who has found success from both traditional publishing and self-publishing. We talk about how she started writing, tips for getting a publisher, marketing for self-published books and more!


Do you think that is a stigma authors have? After self-publishing a book, can that same book get published by a traditional publisher? Mr. Compostion to Bunmi Laditan.

“I’ve known so many people who have self-published books and then sold it.” -Bunmi Laditan

Listen to the full podcast below.


-Mr.Composition, The Emcee That Writes Fiction.


Preorder Bunmi Laditan’s new book,  Confessions of a Domestic Failure: A Humorous Book About a not so Perfect Mom, before its release, May 2nd.

You can follow her on Instagram @bunmiladitan  and Twitter @HonestToddler


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FLOAT Away from Domestic Abuse: San Antonio’s Sensory Deprivation Specialist throw event to bring awareness to Domestic Abuse on International Women’s Day

We’ve heard about it in stories, movies, religion, and philosophies. Love. This state of being that can bring us freedom, but what is not often talked about is how we can become a slave to it. How our beloved Prince/Princess charming can turn into our torturer, and in many cases, executioner when it comes to domestic abuse.


What is Domestic Abuse?

Domestic abuse is the mistreatment, (mental, physical, or emotional) by one person against another in a domestic setting, such as in marriage or cohabitation. Also known as intimate partner violence. According to a report released by the Texas Council on Family Violence, 1 in 3 Texas women will experience domestic abuse.


Victims of Domestic Abuse and Mental Health? The Connection…

As more studies and awareness is brought to the public on mental health, new connections are being made between mental health and victims of Domestic Abuse. Researchers at King’s College London’s Institute of Psychiatry and the University of Bristol conducted 41 studies around the world, and the data show an alarming find. Most victims of domestic violence, male, and female,  suffer from a wide range mental health disorders.

FLOAT away Domestic Abuse.

Float Tanks (also known as sensory deprivation tank or isolation tank) are soundproof pods in which the user floats in a zero-gravity like state, with their body floating halfway submerged in water and Epson salt. They are used for a wide range of healing from Pain ReliefPTSD  and more. Taking care of your health is both your ally in leaving domestic violence and in the healing after. Individuals who develop PTSD may have gone through domestic abuse.

FLOAT is one of few Float Tank practices that we have here in San Antonio, Texas. They even have massage services as well. Also. they offer the Weightless Warrior Program, which gifts a free 60- minute float session to Veterans and Active Duty military!

SA HAVEN event Presented by FLOAT

Last night at the Paper Tiger, FLOAT held an event to bring awareness to domestic abuse. 100% of all profits will go to non-profit causes in San Antonio that raise awareness about domestic violence.


There is help available.

FLOAT & Paper Tiger did an amazing job on International Women’s Day by delivering a successful event that brought attention to domestic abuse, in which women are impacted by the most. LiL BO WEEP, ambient singer/DJ from Australia headlined the event. Local support provided by LloronasILa Minori, and Canyon Lake Trip-Hop duo Voodoo Boogaloo. All the acts brought a peaceful dance of pain, hope, and unity.

In astrology, Jupiter (Larget planet in our solar system, the planet of expansion, Masculine energy) went retrograde March 8th at 23° Scorpio (Zodiac sign of deep healing, Evolution, Feminine energy) and ends on July 10 at 13° Scorpio. These next few months offer an interesting balance of healing from both energies in the most nurturing way.

Take advantage of this time and heal.

If you are a victim of domestic abuse, Men, and Women, or know someone who is, don’t hesitate to reach out to the many organizations available for help.

 The Rape Crisis Center – provides care for those impacted by sexual violence through counseling, crisis intervention, and prevention education. Also offers FREE counseling for trauma, abuse, and couples.

If you would like to learn more about FLOAT, check out their website: and follow them on Instagram @float_sa


– Mr.Composition, The Emcee that Writes Fiction



All photos below shot by @dabtrollcreations


@ilaminori merch table.

@float_sa booth.

Crowd during a set change.

Local Musician Ezra & @lilboweep talking.

@voodooboogaloo merch booth.

@voodooboogaloo performing

The crowd during @voodooboogaloo’s performance

Damien of @TheMoySA

@lilboweep & fan.

Damien of @TheMoySA & @lilboweep

Damien & Travis of @TheMoySA

@voodooboogaloo performing.

Damien of @TheMoySA art magazine.


@ilaminori Performing.




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New Docuseries “The Composition” Follows the life of Rapper, Author, and Creator as he travels the world.

When I was in elementary school I researched, I loved adventure, I created, read books, wrote raps, poetry, stories, and made money off my ideas and things I was passionate about. (Gary Vaynerchuk had baseball cards, I had Yo-Gi-Oh and Pokemon cards)

Now as an adult I do the same. This docu-series, The Composition, will be a reel of my life as I travel the world meeting new people, performing music, making memories with friends, creating, and building my company, Dab Troll Creations while dodging the 9-to-5 like the plague. Shot and edited to make each episode a mini-documentary.

I hope I can inspire you to take that leap and do what you love. Every one is a composition of something amazing, what are you composed of?

Watched the pilot episode below.

Created by Mr. Composition, The Emcee That Writes Fiction.

Video Edit credit: Kinyo






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Alesia Etinoff blends Afrofuturism, Mental Health, and Black Empowerment in new Web Series

Hollywood would have us thinking that the narratives of blacks stop at slaves, thugs, and crackheads. We know that isn’t true, but entertainment depicting alternate narratives are few and far between. LA-based Comedian, Writer, and Actress, Alesia Etinoff, is helping to narrow that gap with new web-series, “Avant-Guardians”.  In this Afrofuturism series, Etinoff plays guardian angel, Razz, who watches over 12-year-old future third black President, Charlie, whom she refers to as “Creepy Charlie.” Razz is instructed by God to attend therapy after a recent accident Charlie had.

Watch the first episode below:


I also had the pleasure of doing a group podcast with Kinyo (host, poet), Franque Michele (blogger), & Chauntel Logan (author) interviewing Alesia Etinoff about the creation of Avant-Guardians, Mental Health, and more!

Listen below:


You can watch all 7 episodes of ” Avant-Guardians”


and follow Alesia Etinoff on Instagram 


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If you have not seen the Black Panther movie, proceed with caution. Major spoilers.

My name is Mr. Composition, The Emcee That Writes Fiction. Rapper, Author, Dabbler of many.

As a creative sometimes I feel like we can over think so much that we create and not put nothing out or we are crippled by the possibilities of all the things that can be done that nothing gets created.

With that being said, I present to you my first podcast, “Thoughts & Chill”.  I have recorded a few episodes and what better way to figure out how to do anything then by just doing it.

My guest Kinyo and I review Black Panther after watching it in 3D. Which to me added another layer on top an already deeply layered film.


-Mr.Composition, The Emcee That Writes Fiction.



Also, hear some dialogue from previous talks !


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